Tuesday, December 13
was another day that i'm so excited to meet hima nd see what's going on and all. those lil suprises he'll give me and all. it was all ordinary till the afternoon that came so dreadful and screwed.
i was merely upset that he deleted his picture from my phone. and i show that i was angry. okay, i guess that was my fault. but i did tell him that i was sorry bout wad happened and all. so many countless times. but he hung up on me with just two words "i'm sorry."
is that all i deserve? two words? im being so patient in this whole thang through the past months, yet... sighs. i don't know la. from the start i realised i've never really understood what you were thinking. cause at times in this, and in a split second, it's another thing. another that. so wad is it?
i never knew. i never thought, i never was told. and so was it me fumbling alone? being ostracized, ALONE? or was it you!?! you leaving me all alone? what is it?
i never believe in fate or luck. any of those sort. i always believe everyone is made by God's love. i hate to take things in a negative way. likewise, to this. and so, i know that everything done or undone if not compared to the multitudes in heaven. yes, i'm upset and fretting over all these stuffies. but why am i getting myself feeling so drowny when i have you, Lord. i have my family and friends too.
whatever the case. i don't wish to think bout it now. tomorrow's gonna be the last chance. one it's over, it's GONE!
8:36 PM
